"I get knocked down."

Did you ever have one of those days where everything just gets thrown at you at once? Kind of like one giant "fuck you" from the human population. A slap in the face. Like someone kicked you when you were already down. The days that make you kind of doubt all of your beliefs.
I am having one of those days today. Today I went to med-express for the first time to find out that I have mononucleosis or, the "kissing disease." Not that I have been kissing anyone. The doctors were great there and I'd recommend the place to anyone, but telling an 18 year old girl that she has mono on her last weekend of winter break is like giving someone a death sentence. I haven't been able to do anything for days because I've felt horrible. I literally have watched about 15 movies within the past three days. On top of finding out that I have mono, the guy that I was recently in a relationship with, went to see a movie with another girl that I've been wanting to see with him, simply because, that was our thing. I don't blame him for going without me since we're not together but that doesn't mean that it wasn't a slap in the face. It really felt like I got kicked when I was clearly already down.
Relationships are a huge deal to me. They give you a chance to really get to know someone and they're an opportunity to fall in love. I was always the little girl who wanted to meet her soul mate when she was three like Cory and Topanga. I have never been unfaithful in a relationship, and I've never been in a relationship like the one with this guy. I have been cheated on by practically every guy I've been with, until him. He treated me like a princess, which is something new to me after my last relationship. Needless to say, I liked him a lot and being without him has been lonely.
This week has been rough and has even made me question my faith, which is what this is all about. I am a very strong believer in God. I chose not to preach about my faith though, because I realize that not everyone feels the same way. Regardless of how faithful you are, we have all questioned our faith at some point or another. Whether it is because someone you really care about passed away (I would know, I've lost 8 people that meant the world to me already and I'm only 18), or because you lost your job, or went through a bad break up, or maybe you're even a war veteran. It doesn't matter who you, I don't care if you're the pope, you have questioned your faith at some point in your life.
Not only am I a huge believer of the Guy in the sky, but I am also a strong believer in Karma. I believe that we should all treat others the way we want to be treated and apply the "Golden Rule" to every day life. I have loved giving advice for as long as I can remember, not that I can take my own. I have been a shoulder to cry on and an open ear to listen whenever someone had a problem, even if I wasn't close with that person. It's been getting hard to help people that I know won't return the favor though.
What I'm getting at is not to lose your faith or change your beliefs because you've had a bad day, week, month or even year. I've gone through a ton of emotions within the past week and I've had a lot thrown my way that I haven't been able to deal with on my own. Thankfully I've had a friend that has been there for me the whole time to listen to me rant and whine about everything going on. This friend also got me to challenge my beliefs in a way. He told me that good and bad things come to us in cycles. He may be right. Either way, shit happens. You're going to get kicked when your down and then a week later be picked back up and put on your high horse. Good and bad things may come in cycles or as pay back for how we treat others. They may be a test from God. He may throw situations at us to see how much we can handle until we question or start to lose faith in him. He may want to see how we treat others due to what we are going through. It could all be one big test. If it is though, I want it to be a test that I pass. I want us all to pass. So don't let things bother you as much. My friend told me to "hang in there," and that's exactly what I'm going to do. I'm going to keep praying and keep treating others the way I want to be treated.
...and like I always say, "hope for the best, expect the worst, and you'll rarely be let down." Don't rely on others for your happiness, because if you make someone or something your world, you're left with nothing when they're gone.